I have been told I have nothing to be jealous of when it comes to Josh. I disagree. I HAVE A SHIT TON TO BE JEALOUS OF!!! (I'm just a teensy bit over dramatic about it... or I just talk about it too much...) I have completely lost faith in myself. Yes, I know that there is still a chance I'll be cast in Starlight. But I think that most (all) of my hope has been drained away. (I need a shoulder to cry on, but I'm a little too proud to admit it out loud, and I don't want to waste anyone's time with my own problems...) I don't know what's wrong with me. I know that theatre is what I want to do with my life, but am I good enough for it? ...I don't know how to answer that question anymore...
(Me, right now)
Today has been a really shitty day. Sorry for the profanity.
...I'll try to be more positive later. I promise.