Thoughts

I've secretly always wanted to be put into the Witness Protection Program.  (Yeah I realize your life has to be put in danger and stuff.... but still)  It would be interesting.  You basically get to start over. Completely.  You even get a new name.  I'm pretty sure it would never happen to me, but it's still something I think about.  What would I do with a blank slate?  How would I handle it?  Would I end up in a better or worse place than I am now?

There are so many things I want to change about myself, a chance to change who I am is well.... enticing. (I am grateful for what I have right now, I'm not complaining.  It's just a thought.)

There have been a few movies about people switching bodies, brains, personalities, lives, etc...  That's something else I've always thought about.  If I were to switch with someone, what would I do?  Well, I guess that depends on the person I switch with.  I can think of a few people I'd like to switch with..... eyup. (pop sound at the "p")  I heard a song (mostly because Josh never stopped singing it) about a guy who wanted someone else's life.  The song has been stuck in my head since... um... like... mid April.  Yeah.... So I've put a lot of thought into that idea.

I think what I really want is a change. Something that will give people a different opinion of me.  (It's odd, I know... most people generally like me... I don't want to be disliked.  Sometimes I just want ....different.)

Lists, Lists, and More Lists

Rather than making a series of posts that contain these lists; I thought it would just be easier to put them all down here! On one convenient post of lists!

Things I Love:

• Music
• Harry Potter
• Disney
• To be specific: The Hunchback of Notre Dame
• To be even more specific: The final note that Clopin sings in "The Bells of Notre Dame"
• The French Horn
• Oboes
• Acting
• Improv
• Improv
• Improv (Because 3 times is funny)
• My Friends
• Choirs
• SWITZERLAND!!!! (More happy than Disneyland)
• Showers
• Singing in showers
• Writing
• Star Wars
• Nerd Games
• Walking
• The point in the morning where the sun just came up, and no one is around
• Night time
• Thunderstorms
• Cooking
• Mary Poppins

Things I Hate:

• When an instrument is out of tune and someone DOESN'T FIX IT!
• Yelling
• People with the "Holier than Thou" attitude 
• My general appearance..... cough.
• Those tiny little scratches that don't need any medical attention, but sting like hell
• People who can't say things to my face
• Bugs. All of them. (Especially if they are anywhere near where I sleep at night.)
• Pickles
• Asking too many questions
• Impatience
• Ignorance
• Being alone
• Not having something to do
• Writer's block
• False hope
• Being ignored
• Being forgotten
• The phrase "Well I did think about inviting you, but I didn't end up doing so."
• Snow
• The moment you realize you are wrong in an argument
• Losing
• Playing basketball

Things I Want:

• Fame (who doesn't?)
• To look older
• Physical fitness (Working on it...)
• To move out
• Charisma (with well... women... when I'm actually trying)
• The ability to dance
• Someone that I feel I can talk to all the time, no matter what, for a long time
• A new wardrobe
• To be in a good Disney movie (none of that straight to T.V. shit)
• To be taken seriously
• To be seen as more than just comic relief
• Someone to discover the cure to Multiple Sclerosis
• Background music. All. The. Time.
• More male friends (Girls are fine... but I need to be... macho....? Sure, let's use that word)
• Children (not now, but at some point)
• People to GET FRICKEN BACK TO CEDAR! (Shelly, Josh, Selena, Natalie, Jane, Brie, Amanda, etc...)

Things I Need:

• Experience
• Money
• Time
• A healthier diet
• A place to move in to
• A better job than tutoring
• Medicine
• Gloves (so I stop killing my fingers)
• To find my ipod (I'm going a little bit crazy)
• A 3.8 to a 4.0 next semester

Fears:

• Deep water
• Spiders
• Overly-realistic masks
• Centipedes (Have you SEEN those things? It's like they crawled strait from HELL!)
• Losing people who I've become close to (in any way)

....I think that's about everything I wanted to list........... for now. (cackle)